History, like ancient ruins, are the fictions of empires, while everything forgotton hangs in dark dreams of the past, ever threatening to return.

 

Until one mysterious day, the Jack would discover that someone there were others.. quite like him, singled out for a great gift. And one day, the whole stinking world would be theirs.

 

For once, there was an unknown land, full of strange flowers and subtle perfumes; a land of which it is joy of all joys to dream; a land where all things are perfect and poisonous.

There were times when it appeared to Dorian Gray that the whole of history was merely a record of his own life. Not as he had lived it in act and circumstance, but as his imagination had created it for him, as it had been in his brain and in his passions. He felt that he'd known them all, those strange, terrible figures that had passed along the stage of life and made sin so marvelous and evil so full of subtlety. It seemed that in some mysterious way, their lives had been his own.

 

Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask and he'll tell you the truth.

 

Nothing makes one so vain as being toled one is a sinner.

Arthur: It's only now, lookin' back, that I see how you patched through my walls and entered my life in waves.

 

Kurt: Come closer.

--transcript from <Velvet Goldmine>

 

"Meaning is not in things, but in between them."  - Norman Brown

刚从纽约学习旅行回来，很多感想，暂时没时间动笔。但是想看到文字堆积。。。

 

MoMA的新楼让人耳目一新，展览没让我失望，西班牙的建筑水准让我叹为观止。今年到此为止的两大炸弹就是发现韩国电影实力和西班牙当代建筑实力。

 

shape

shape

shapeshape

shape shape

pppshape

shshape

shapeshape

shape

 

walk walk

walk

walking...

walking through

walking along...

shape

walk up

walk on top

 

go

walk

get into your head

hack into your head

hack into you

hack the code

hack your code

code you up

 

walk out

I lub u lub u

hack you

 walk out walk out walk...

 

dots hack your dots hack your head

 

我以前对MM的这两位夫人丝毫没有好感。最近我发现Rose是个好演员，Dita是个有性格的模特。

黑漆

黑塑料

漆黑

黑洞

黑丝

黑头发

真黑

黑访客

黑眼睛

黑

黑

黑亮

 

越看“黑”字越像个瞪着大眼睛的四爪鱼，又丑又傻。

 

 

 

你－－－－－我、我－－－－－你

 

less-------------more

more-------------less

 

 

 

我刚得知Yoshiki制作了一个韩国乐队Trax.

 

Q，你知道这个乐队的情况吗？http://trax-net.jp , http://www.thetrax.com/ 既然他出马，应该错不了。

 

中国的乐队何时能打入日本市场？

麻烦大家给我介绍一下上海。“外滩”是个什么概念？

 

沪申画廊：http://203.86.178.10/3OB/cn/ “成为全球展示和经营中国当代艺术最具权威和影响里的私立画廊。”

 

姆姆你不是在上海吗？有时间替我去看看这些画廊，然后给我讲讲吧。

 

 

 

 

- You found me out, alright? My worst secret. Now I'm humiliated, so your work is done here.

- Wait. I don't think you're a dork. But if you know how ridiculous you look, why would you do it?

- Don't you believe in anything?

- Yeah.

- Then tell me! Tell you one thing in your life beyond the shadow of a doubt, that you really believe.

- I believe Ann-Margaret has never been given her due as an actress.

- Duh. For Tommy alone, I mean, did you see it when she was, ... But is that something you can build a life on? Look at yourself! You're so pretty and colorful on the outside, but inside you are nothing but fluff. You're like a life walking, talking marshmallow peep.

- That's not fair.

- It doesn't matter, when it's true. I can't believe what I was about to do, when there is nothing, xxx, nothing about you that's not skin-deep.

blah blah blah blah blah.........

- It's just, I'm not shallow, am I?

- Honey, you don't have to be deep. You just have to be pretty.

- You are not helping.

- If you have something to prove, be at my house at 6:30 in the morning.

- 6:30 in the morning? Why?

- You have to sacrifice if you want to find yourself or whatever it is you're doing.

- You don't think I'll be there.

 

- Quit bitching. It's the early bird who gets the worm.

- There's an incentive, especially since you can get pizza till 2:00 am.

 

 

 

我很少置疑我自己，尽管这个世界上最值得置疑，最需要置疑得就是我自己。

 

前几天和M去看展览的路上，她说：This world has already given me enough to think about. 同感。一辈子可用来思考的东西太多了，一个世界已经够了。但是我觉得自己比这个世界更值得思考，更需要思考，更需要探索。

 

我自己是个迷，我自己都探索不清。每次一想到探索自己，我就发怵，我就害怕，心虚，但是又被一个似有似无的满足感取代了。

 

从去年十月，我就一天天地更加在置疑我自己，我在变。

 

有些答案就在那里，但是我可能永远解不开。

 

想置疑自己的只有自己。

 

别人不需要置疑我。别人都看得很清楚。

 

到了自己置疑自己的时候，就是……

 

我遇到了最清楚的一面镜子。它虽然也模模糊糊，斑驳不堪，还经常跳来跳去故意不让我照清楚，但是相比之下，它是我照过的最清楚的一面镜子。有了这面镜子之后，我就按捺不住要找更多、更清楚的镜子，或者扔掉这面镜子……但是不可能。我永远感谢这面镜子，尽管它模模糊糊。

 

思考自己真是太累了，看似有头绪，却又没头绪。还好有面模模糊糊的镜子。心想：以后可不要再出现这样的镜子了，太清楚的镜子容易让我得意忘形或者不知所措。但是又偏偏要想方设法把模糊的镜子擦清楚了。徒劳……

 

也许我也是别人的镜子，在不知不觉中影响了别人。如果我是别人的镜子，我希望我是块清澈的镜子，并且得到褒奖，听到别人夸我是面好镜子。可惜啊，没人夸你是好镜子。人照完镜子时往往是默默地把感触埋在心里。

 

人总有好奇心。我也不例外，满足好奇心需要很多时间。想看清楚、看明白，需要太多时间。想看清自己……算了吧……镜子都模模糊糊的……

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Q你不是提醒我更新空间吗？今天就这些胡言乱语。later.

 

 

 

 

 

- Isamu Noguchi